Today, I almost convinced one of our contributors to write a blog called, 'An Open Letter To Guys With Girlfriends' considering the fact that everyone we like lately HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
And this is certainly not the only/first time this has happened to me. When I was in high school, I loved liking guys with girlfriends because it meant that I could be all sad and downtrodden and look out the car window on rainy days while listening to Jeff Buckley but never really do anything about it.
Now, though, I tend to go for guys who are a little more...available...but even that has its challenges. In Shelby and I's case, we go to events, we talk up musicians, we think that they're awesome and funny and cute and smart and then...they friend us on Facebook.
And we see that beautiful 'IN A RELATIONSHIP' reality check.
So, go for the available guys, right? Hit them up! There's plenty of single guys out there!
Ha. You'd think.
The last time I went out with an 'available' guy, I never really went out with him. The first time we met, we were in a group, and he acted totally uninterested in me. The second time, he invited me out for drinks after we'd already hung out in a group and we totally hit it off. After that? Didn't hear from him again until we hung out again in group settings-- and hard as I tried to isolate him, we only ever saw each other when other people were involved.
The time before that, I started liking a temporary roommate of mine, I guy I became close friends with after moving into his house before my lease on my new place started. We had a ton in common and a lot of chemistry-- but he'd only make a move when he was drunk.
So, what is this? Do I just have bad luck? Am I into guys that don't like to pull the trigger? What's the deal here?
My theory is this: either A) That thing my mom always told me to make me feel better is actually true, and these guys really aren't interested in my because I'm successful and intimidating, or B) they're afraid to make a move and they are interested in me, or C) They're not interested in me at all and were never interested in me in the first place.
All of these answers are OK. If A), I like being successful and having a good job and being busy all the time. If that bothers a guy...well, it should never bother a guy. That's dumb.
If B)...I don't really think it's B). I gave both guys PLENTY of opportunities. For fuck's sake, I asked the group outings guy on a date THREE TIMES (he went out with me all three times, by the way. Each time got interrupted by friends showing up midway through).
If C), that's fine, too, but LET ME KNOW. Stop saying yes to hang out with me. Stop saying that you had a fun time on our solitary outing and would love to hang out again if that's a blatant lie. Stop inviting your friends to break up our 'date' because you didn't want to reject me-- just freaking reject me. I'm a big girl, I can take it.
Most of all, stop hitting on my when you're drunk. Stop cock blocking me in clubs when I get some cute dude's phone number if you aren't later going to kiss me and tell me how you really feel. Stop forgetting that something happened after you hugged me in the freezing cold and wrapped me up in your jacket to keep me warm with your body heat. You were too drunk? Yeah, right.
My plea is this: if you aren't interested, let me know. If you are, let me know. It's that simple.
Monday, March 28, 2016
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Frustrated.
It's been one of those weeks that makes it really, really hard to wait for my lease to be up to move out.
One of my roommates told our old roommate-- the one who moved out early and screwed us all over by messing up our leases-- that she'd watch her dogs for her. For a week. Right after I just moved a shit-ton of new furniture into the house.
It's hard to be so mad about this because a part of me goes, "Madi. You freaking idiot. It's stuff." After talking it over with a coworker, though, I realized that I'm single and I'm about to move into my own place. Because of this, my stuff is kind of a big deal to me-- it sort of defines my new life moving forward. The couch is going to be my first couch all to myself. My new TV is the TV I'll be watching on Saturday nights when I have my friends over. My new rug is the first big piece of furniture I've ever had to drop big money on-- money I've worked so hard to earn.
It sounds really shallow and sometimes I tell myself that at least I have a roof over my head in the first place, and that's true. I do deserve to be happy, though, and living here just doesn't do that for me anymore.
I'm chomping at the bit to leave this house and move into my new place, but I just have to wait. Wait, wait, wait, and work.
One of my roommates told our old roommate-- the one who moved out early and screwed us all over by messing up our leases-- that she'd watch her dogs for her. For a week. Right after I just moved a shit-ton of new furniture into the house.
It's hard to be so mad about this because a part of me goes, "Madi. You freaking idiot. It's stuff." After talking it over with a coworker, though, I realized that I'm single and I'm about to move into my own place. Because of this, my stuff is kind of a big deal to me-- it sort of defines my new life moving forward. The couch is going to be my first couch all to myself. My new TV is the TV I'll be watching on Saturday nights when I have my friends over. My new rug is the first big piece of furniture I've ever had to drop big money on-- money I've worked so hard to earn.
It sounds really shallow and sometimes I tell myself that at least I have a roof over my head in the first place, and that's true. I do deserve to be happy, though, and living here just doesn't do that for me anymore.
I'm chomping at the bit to leave this house and move into my new place, but I just have to wait. Wait, wait, wait, and work.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Working in radio has its benefits!
Like, for example, the fact that I get exposed to new bands before they're really anything.
I'm really lucky to be included in things like music meetings since, even though I'm not on air unless I'm covering for someone who's out, I'm still in the demographic for most of the radio stations. Which means...oh, yeah....I get some good shit thrown my way.
I wanted to cover some of my favorite stuff in this blog because lately we have gotten some amazing stuff on the air. Keep in mind, I work for four different genres of stations: alternative, country, pop, and variety (80s, 90s, and today). There's gonna be some variety, all right.
Personally, I lean towards alt music, but I definitely have to be able to listen to all of our genres in this industry. Honestly, it's not that hard-- there's good stuff everywhere.
SOOOO....without further ado, here are my favorites of the week/month.
Finish Ticket: Color
I don't think we're playing this on air yet, but I know it's a band we're keeping our eye on. They're amazing, and honestly, the lead singer is my yuppie dream. Shelby, our afternoon DJ, sent this to me this morning, so I can't take any credit for finding these guys.
Robert DeLong: Jealousy
We are definitely playing this, I can tell you that much. It's so catchy. It's so FREAKING CATCHY.
Joywave: Destruction
God, I love weird-ass musicians. This music video is awesome, and the song is quite badass...who knew whistling could work so well in a song?
Maren Morris: My Church
Because ladies are KILLING IT in country music right now and I had to share this song that I belt in the car on my way home from work.
Brothers Osborne: 21 Summer
I have been in love with TJ Osborne ever since I met him at a radio event and he asked me if I was 'hanging out later'. It's the most arrogant story I have and I use it....too much. But I love him, and I wish I had been hanging out rather than going to Voodoo Donuts because I was hungry. This song is amazing and makes your shoulders shake and I love it.
That's all for right now...I'm so lucky to work in this industry and I love the situations it provides. Let's cheers to more opportunities to get hit on by The Brothers Osborne!!
I'm really lucky to be included in things like music meetings since, even though I'm not on air unless I'm covering for someone who's out, I'm still in the demographic for most of the radio stations. Which means...oh, yeah....I get some good shit thrown my way.
I wanted to cover some of my favorite stuff in this blog because lately we have gotten some amazing stuff on the air. Keep in mind, I work for four different genres of stations: alternative, country, pop, and variety (80s, 90s, and today). There's gonna be some variety, all right.
Personally, I lean towards alt music, but I definitely have to be able to listen to all of our genres in this industry. Honestly, it's not that hard-- there's good stuff everywhere.
SOOOO....without further ado, here are my favorites of the week/month.
Finish Ticket: Color
I don't think we're playing this on air yet, but I know it's a band we're keeping our eye on. They're amazing, and honestly, the lead singer is my yuppie dream. Shelby, our afternoon DJ, sent this to me this morning, so I can't take any credit for finding these guys.
Robert DeLong: Jealousy
We are definitely playing this, I can tell you that much. It's so catchy. It's so FREAKING CATCHY.
Joywave: Destruction
God, I love weird-ass musicians. This music video is awesome, and the song is quite badass...who knew whistling could work so well in a song?
Maren Morris: My Church
Because ladies are KILLING IT in country music right now and I had to share this song that I belt in the car on my way home from work.
Brothers Osborne: 21 Summer
I have been in love with TJ Osborne ever since I met him at a radio event and he asked me if I was 'hanging out later'. It's the most arrogant story I have and I use it....too much. But I love him, and I wish I had been hanging out rather than going to Voodoo Donuts because I was hungry. This song is amazing and makes your shoulders shake and I love it.
That's all for right now...I'm so lucky to work in this industry and I love the situations it provides. Let's cheers to more opportunities to get hit on by The Brothers Osborne!!
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Hidden Pictures in My Office Computer
I've had a very exciting few days.
First of all, the guy that lives in my apartment now sent me pictures of the living room so that I can start planning furniture. IT'S JUST HOW I REMEMBER IT. MAYBE CUTER.
Second of all....well, this part's not very exciting.
I was rifling through my stuff that I saved on my office computer and actually found quite a few interesting things. This is funny considering that I've now been at this specific job for almost exactly a year, and I've been working in this building for a little bit longer than that. Over that year, I've saved some pretty weird stuff.
Here's one we took today-- and they almost didn't let me be in it since I'm normally behind the camera. Hey, my hair looked good and I wore my Ireland t-shirt-- I want in!!
First of all, the guy that lives in my apartment now sent me pictures of the living room so that I can start planning furniture. IT'S JUST HOW I REMEMBER IT. MAYBE CUTER.
Second of all....well, this part's not very exciting.
I was rifling through my stuff that I saved on my office computer and actually found quite a few interesting things. This is funny considering that I've now been at this specific job for almost exactly a year, and I've been working in this building for a little bit longer than that. Over that year, I've saved some pretty weird stuff.
Yeah. That one's very relevant...
This whole slew of pictures actually super represents my time at Townsquare Media so far, so I wanted to share them all. LET'S GO!
This was my first-ever Greeley Stampede, where I took pictures on top of an RV to get the best shot. I'll do anything for the perfect shot....
Here's one of my Halloween costumes from last year. Can you guess?
We wanted to support the Broncos at the Super Bowl with a fun group shot this year, and Susan (who took the picture) loved the fact that the big ice block looked like the mountain range.
A group shot at my first-ever awards show, the CBAs, a few weeks ago. I'm clearly having a ball (or had too much wine?). There's also a better shot of my dress down below.
Here's one we took today-- and they almost didn't let me be in it since I'm normally behind the camera. Hey, my hair looked good and I wore my Ireland t-shirt-- I want in!!
And then, you know. There's this.
Happy almost one year, me!
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
High School Flashbacks
This weekend, my best friend from Texas came to visit me since she loves spending her birthday amongst the gorgeous Colorado mountains. Can't say I blame her.
Since it was her 23rd birthday (and I really should have stopped reciting 'nobody likes you when you're tweeeeeenty-three'), we hit the breweries, local Fort Collins restaurants, and, yeah...more breweries.
I always love it when people come to visit but in the same vein, I wonder just what local Fort Collins hangs define this town. There's nothing I want more than for my friends and family to see how amazing this city is.
Everyone keeps asking me why I want to stay in Fort Collins so badly and the answer is honestly really simple. I moved to Fort Collins for college on my own-- it was the first city I ever discovered by myself without my parents and really got to know. I know the roads, the places, the old buildings and the new ones, and I could tell you the businesses that line College from Laurel to Mulberry. I know the best parks, the best taco place (Mexicali, duh), and the best thrift stores.
I definitely want to keep moving. I don't want to know only one place my whole life and I doubt that that will happen, but for right now, I want to stay in Fort Collins because right now, it's my home.
AND I LOVE MY HOME!
Since it was her 23rd birthday (and I really should have stopped reciting 'nobody likes you when you're tweeeeeenty-three'), we hit the breweries, local Fort Collins restaurants, and, yeah...more breweries.
I always love it when people come to visit but in the same vein, I wonder just what local Fort Collins hangs define this town. There's nothing I want more than for my friends and family to see how amazing this city is.
Everyone keeps asking me why I want to stay in Fort Collins so badly and the answer is honestly really simple. I moved to Fort Collins for college on my own-- it was the first city I ever discovered by myself without my parents and really got to know. I know the roads, the places, the old buildings and the new ones, and I could tell you the businesses that line College from Laurel to Mulberry. I know the best parks, the best taco place (Mexicali, duh), and the best thrift stores.
I definitely want to keep moving. I don't want to know only one place my whole life and I doubt that that will happen, but for right now, I want to stay in Fort Collins because right now, it's my home.
AND I LOVE MY HOME!
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Pink Kitchen.
Yesterday was a pretty crazy day. My work was involved in Fort Collins' annual St. Paddy's Day Parade in Old Town and I got to walk alongside the float taking pictures!
Oh. Did I mention our float featured local band Slow Caves and was basically an all-around badass experience?
Afterwards, the Shelb-ster and I decided we didn't want to hang around and be bored all day, and since she moved into the same building as me (just a little earlier than I'm planning on being in there) and we're both looking for vintage, character-filled pieces for our homes, we headed to the flea market.
There were so many swoon-inducing pieces. I didn't entirely know what I was looking for when I first went in there, but of course, everything that caught my eye was pink.
Oh. Did I mention our float featured local band Slow Caves and was basically an all-around badass experience?
Afterwards, the Shelb-ster and I decided we didn't want to hang around and be bored all day, and since she moved into the same building as me (just a little earlier than I'm planning on being in there) and we're both looking for vintage, character-filled pieces for our homes, we headed to the flea market.
There were so many swoon-inducing pieces. I didn't entirely know what I was looking for when I first went in there, but of course, everything that caught my eye was pink.
The pink phone I grabbed right away. I saw a little girl carrying around a desktop phone that looked similar and got SO jealous, so we made it our mission to find another phone just for me. And we did! I can't wait to hang this up in my kitchen.
The fish was such a last minute purchase...but honestly, come on. It's so cute. That'll go in my kitchen, too, and while it is a cookie jar, maybe I'll pop takeout menus or tea bags or something else in there-- haven't decided yet.
Now, I realize I'm headed towards having a pink kitchen. The kettle I have is light blue, though, and the kitchen chairs I want to use are white, so I really have to figure out this whole color scheme thing before I actually move in.
Any ideas for me?
Thursday, March 10, 2016
I just signed a lease!
And it's really, really, REALLY exciting. I want to shout it from the rooftops.
I think I already have, actually. Maybe not from the rooftops, though. Maybe in my car on my way home.
Right now I live in a house with two girls and it is...rough. I used to live with my two best friends-- my sister and my old roommate, Hallie-- and then Hallie got a job in D.C. and Molly decided to move in with her fiance.
The girls in here are great, but it's hard living with two people who you don't know and still deal with a really stressful job...sometimes, all I want to do is come home and relax but people are talking and cooking and humming and it's a lot.
Like I said-- they're amazing people, but I'm done with roommates for...a long time.
OK! Done complaining. Now I want to talk furniture.
I am literally going crazy waiting two and a half months to move into my new place. It's an old building with radiators and hardwood floors and a big, old fireplace in the living room. My parents are being kind enough to give me their giant old burgundy couch, which isn't the cutest thing in the world but it's comfortable and reminds me of home. I bought my dream black-and-white plaid shag rug (on sale, YUSSS) but now I have to figure out how to decorate the rest of it. My pintrest is BLOWING UP, to say the least:
I'm such a decor snob, but something I'm resigning myself to is to not be so over the top about matching. Usually, I'm weird about things like mixing wood (browns) with black and white, and mixing colors that don't go together.
If you know me at all, you know that I am OBSESSED with color-- my bedroom is the perfect hodgepodge of pink, yellow, blue, red, and white. But it doesn't all have to 'go' perfectly, and this is what I keep telling myself over and over and over. Wood can go with black and white and light blue can go with dark red and gold can go with silver....OKAY, that one's actually not going to happen anytime soon.
I'm just anxious to get decorating, and I want to be in my place so badly I've started having dreams about it. I only have two and a half more months to go, and it's just gotta be a patient waiting game for me. For now, I'll just have to keep scrolling through pintrest and picking out my favorite rooms.
I think I already have, actually. Maybe not from the rooftops, though. Maybe in my car on my way home.
Right now I live in a house with two girls and it is...rough. I used to live with my two best friends-- my sister and my old roommate, Hallie-- and then Hallie got a job in D.C. and Molly decided to move in with her fiance.
The girls in here are great, but it's hard living with two people who you don't know and still deal with a really stressful job...sometimes, all I want to do is come home and relax but people are talking and cooking and humming and it's a lot.
Like I said-- they're amazing people, but I'm done with roommates for...a long time.
OK! Done complaining. Now I want to talk furniture.
I am literally going crazy waiting two and a half months to move into my new place. It's an old building with radiators and hardwood floors and a big, old fireplace in the living room. My parents are being kind enough to give me their giant old burgundy couch, which isn't the cutest thing in the world but it's comfortable and reminds me of home. I bought my dream black-and-white plaid shag rug (on sale, YUSSS) but now I have to figure out how to decorate the rest of it. My pintrest is BLOWING UP, to say the least:
I'm such a decor snob, but something I'm resigning myself to is to not be so over the top about matching. Usually, I'm weird about things like mixing wood (browns) with black and white, and mixing colors that don't go together.
If you know me at all, you know that I am OBSESSED with color-- my bedroom is the perfect hodgepodge of pink, yellow, blue, red, and white. But it doesn't all have to 'go' perfectly, and this is what I keep telling myself over and over and over. Wood can go with black and white and light blue can go with dark red and gold can go with silver....OKAY, that one's actually not going to happen anytime soon.
I'm just anxious to get decorating, and I want to be in my place so badly I've started having dreams about it. I only have two and a half more months to go, and it's just gotta be a patient waiting game for me. For now, I'll just have to keep scrolling through pintrest and picking out my favorite rooms.
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
OH EHM GEE.
It has been almost a year since my last blog...that is CRAZY!
I have come to terms with the fact that I am terrible at blogging. I'm going to stop apologizing for it. You already know this about me and (hopefully?) find it endearing.
Or not. (Insert my signature goat laugh here)
I feel like I'm not going to do a 'year in review' or anything...I mean, maybe down the line I'll do that with a video. I think that's a good idea because Molly, my sister, and I have always wanted to start vlogging again.
I still have 700 subscribers sitting pretty on my YouTube channel (which is a lot to me!!) and I feel a bit like I'm neglecting them by just leaving them be on that channel with no updates. HOWEVER, I live with roommates right now-- great people, but not people I feel comfortable vlogging around. In a few months-- June, to be precise-- I will be moving out into a new place on my own and then I think I'll have plenty of time to vlog again. FINALLY!
SO while you wait patiently for a 'year in review' video, I'll just give you a few updates since you last saw me in Washington D.C. freaking out about my new big-girl job.
This is actually fairly recent, and I honestly don't know how long it will last. BUT, I'm loving it right now. Everyone told me I would look terrible as a blonde but I just thought, 'you know what? Life's too short.' And I did it. And I LOVE it.
I have come to terms with the fact that I am terrible at blogging. I'm going to stop apologizing for it. You already know this about me and (hopefully?) find it endearing.
Or not. (Insert my signature goat laugh here)
I feel like I'm not going to do a 'year in review' or anything...I mean, maybe down the line I'll do that with a video. I think that's a good idea because Molly, my sister, and I have always wanted to start vlogging again.
I still have 700 subscribers sitting pretty on my YouTube channel (which is a lot to me!!) and I feel a bit like I'm neglecting them by just leaving them be on that channel with no updates. HOWEVER, I live with roommates right now-- great people, but not people I feel comfortable vlogging around. In a few months-- June, to be precise-- I will be moving out into a new place on my own and then I think I'll have plenty of time to vlog again. FINALLY!
SO while you wait patiently for a 'year in review' video, I'll just give you a few updates since you last saw me in Washington D.C. freaking out about my new big-girl job.
1. I'm blonde now.
This is actually fairly recent, and I honestly don't know how long it will last. BUT, I'm loving it right now. Everyone told me I would look terrible as a blonde but I just thought, 'you know what? Life's too short.' And I did it. And I LOVE it.2. I'm the digital girl for four radio stations.
You've seen the last post-- I was crazy nervous about my new job as a Digital Managing Editor for Townsquare Media. Now, I love it. It's a ton of work and it's very challenging, which is kind of the stock answer so I'll try to make it more interesting....
I just learn new things every day! I learn things about social media, what works and what doesn't, the best YouTube practices, all sorts of stuff. There's stuff I'm good at and stuff I'm not, stuff I love and stuff I hate. Being in this position is like being in a...marriage, I guess. Hahaha (GOAT LAUGH!).
Sometimes it's hard, because I feel like I deal with people who don't really respect my position. And that's kind of standard when you're 22 and in a super cool position-- but it gets hard. Otherwise, though, this job is awesome.
(The photo is of me at the Colorado Broadcasting Association Awards of Excellence, by the way, which was my first-ever awards show)
I'm not going to go too much more into detail, because I want to kind of just let my life unfold in this blog again like I used to. Hopefully I'll be better about blogging, but if not, I'll try to at least do one a week and make it a little more cohesive before I can finally vlog again. YAHOO!
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